Sress, and lost job.. RANT :(

[Jinny Jean]

Im REALLY stressed out right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and SO incredibly angry!!!!!!! I lost the job I was supposed to start in a week!!!
The real kicker. They blamed everything on my health ... I feel like such a failure! And then they said a whole bunch of things like you dont have what it takes etc and made me cry.

I had applied for at at the beginning of this year to work at a summer day camp where I live and I worked there last summer.... Anyways they are funded by the govnt and have had numerous cut backs and have fired people or let them go where they have need them the most We did have a special needs person working with us last year and she was CUT this year because they felt she wasnt needed... she was invaluable.!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! There are soooo many special needs kids in this program and it is like drowning trying to keep them all together and safe, because they are mostly down at the beach in the water.... and they hire such unexperienced people on top of that which is SO unsafe and scared me last year!

I picked up most of the slack last year and was SO NEW and had no fricken idea how to manage, im suprised I did. The kids (a select few that completly changed the dynamics of the group) are WILD, they are violent and mouthy and crazy, most of them having ADHD and fetal alcohol syndrome.... I still loved this job so much and I had SO much fun.. but it was really hard to control all of them, and no matter how hard I tried I was never good enough or didnt do a good enough job.We had 3 people last year to 22 kids and this year they are only going to have two leaders.. Even with three it still wasnt enough!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! To top it off the organization that runs it is SO disorganized its hard to keep up. Until today they still didnt have a space to put the camp...(which is now a hiuge wharehouse) yeah.. good luck keeping control of the kids there suckers. Plus the beach where they go every day is now completley flooded because of the amount of snow we had this year. That IS ALL the kids care about is the beach,,, anf they were MISERABLE and crazy when we couldnt go last year... I wonder how they will cope this year now that its a SAFTEY hazzard to take them there because of the flooding!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im just so angry and hurt, I am half relieved because to be honest I wasnt sure how I was gonna keep it together anyways having tryed so hard last year, and now with the CUT FUNDING ON TOP AND my partner gone! PLUS IC... I was just sailing on hope. It was my only job though and now I have nothing. Im cut off from my parents medical, and I have no job Elmiron is expensive and im so scared. Why is this all happening to me!!!!!!!!!! I didnt have IC last year and now I do... I feel like some one is punishing me!!!!!!!!!!!!!..... I JUST WANT SOMETHING TO GO RIGHT!

I have a stress flare on top of this right now. The icing on the cake. I let them have it in the office, (which never happends) I am not a confrontational person.... but i gave them a piece of my mind on what I though of the horrid mess of disorganization and how I was scared for the new people they were hiring... I was livid actually. My poor bladder was screaming at me by the time I left... and all they said was sorry... we will give you a week pay.

I feel so alone and I feel like hell, I came home and sat on the shower floor and just cried. I just want this to go away or get under control so I can have my life back!!! I felt like such a loser when I told my bf that I no longer had the job...obviously he consoled me, but he was dissapointed to. We want to go travel at the end of this year and we cant unless I have a job to pay half...

Now I am lying in bed crying as I write with a bottle of water and my heating pad. Just took two T 3`s and a pyridium.

The other hard part is I have A DEGREE too but it is too hard to find a social work job in my town right now.. so I have to find something else for the time being.

I feel like a useless human, and I couldnt even hold a job. This has never happend before!

My mom was understanding and said `` well think of it as a door closing, one will open, and hey at least you dont have to deal with the crazy kids or disorganization or not living up to what they want``.... but Im still mourning the loss of money and I feel like a failure becaue I love those kids more than anything, and thats the only reason I applied again.


I was fine bladder wise too this morning after a week from hell flare... and now im suffering again! Those inconsiderate !"/%%$?&*$.

I hope I find somehting... I guess ill have to go to tim hortons tommrow

Sorry for ranting, and thanks for reading, im gonna try and calm down now.

Jenn

[ICNDonna]

Donna

[Briza]

I'm sorry. These are really rough times. I work for the state and have been told I will find out on the 30th if my position has survived the budget cuts.

[JustmeGemmy]

I'm so sorry you're going through this Things are so rough financially for companies that they will fire you for anything if they can!

I was fired earlier this year for one of two reasons, it was either the old guy wanted his job back OR it was because I couldn't do the things they wanted me to do (Things that were never part of my contract, never discussed & I couldn't do them because of constant IBS flares. I could do my job perfectly well). In the end, they had me in the office after an entire shift of pain (Thanks!!) & fired me for 'an unresolvable issue'. They wouldn't even go into more detail.

My brother has sleep deprivation & stress induced epilepsy & he has trouble working mornings if he's not had enough sleep. I warned him last night that if he keeps struggling with the morning shifts, they will just fire him! There's always a way around it. He thinks he's invincible because he has epilepsy, which is technically a disability so the government will protect him. 'Fraid not.

I really hope you find something else soon. I know it's hard, but try not to let it stress you out too much. You will find something xxxxx

As for the people who fired you.. They will soon regret it when they realise how badly they cope without you! x

[Mothergoose]

Do these people figure if they fire you for medical issues, they can just hire someone else?

Well I guess the way thing are now and the number of people out of work they problably can hire someone else but they have to train them, etc that cost them money and time.

I just think it is so inconsiderate of emplyers to fire people over medical issues, I just feel they should be more considerate.

When we were running our own buisness, it was a hardship on us if someone didn't show up for work, or could not work to their full potential, but our buisness was the type nobody could work if everyone was not there to do their part.

MG

[Linda May]

I feel sad for you and them poor children the government ought to be ashamed of themselves for them cut-backs. They will spend billions going into space but, when it comes to people were on the bottom of the totem pole. I love being an American but, sometimes I don't understand things they do.
I hope and pray you will find relief from your IC soon and like your mom said one door closes another one will open. Try to keep your spirits up you will always have this forum to come and vent.