
I was doing so good.. But then around the first of this year my bladder started shutting down. I could not get the urine out. Many trips to the ER crying because they just said it's "YOUR IC" and there is nothing we can do for you. They would place the foley cath and send me home. My PCP is very good at trying to help with pain management so I am on Fentynal patch 25mcg and Morphine for break through pain. But it is NOT WORKING!!! I had a cysto done this last tuesday and ever since then the pain has been even more unbareable. I just want to lay in bed and cry all the time. That day they "showed" me how to self cath myself so maybe I wouldnt need to go to the ER so often.. well see they may have showed me but they didnt make sure I got it down before I went home. So now i am doing trial by error.. more error than anything. My bladder is spaziming so bad I just lay in bed with my heating pad on my belly and between my legs. What kills me the most is I have a family to care for and I hardly have the energy to take care of myself let alone 3 other people. The pain meds are helping sometimes others it is just like taking a piece of candy ... NO HELP AT ALL!!!




Sorry guys for my pitty party post.. but I had to post this somewhere my family wouldnt see it and where people understand.. even if no one reads this atleast I got it out.. Thanks if you do read it though..
melinda

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