I just want to cry..

[nanawaggs]

Melinda, I'm sorry you're still in such pain.

Prayers that you'll get the help you need soon.

[ICNDonna]

It's good that you'll be seeing your doctors very soon.

I hope they have some answers for you.


Donna

[mylilegirls2]

I am not sure I can do this anymore. The pain is so horrible. And there is nothing I can do. I take my meds.. I use heat.. I finally got the cath thing down so I am atleast able to drain my bladder which btw even when empty feels totally FULL.. I want to crawl in bed and just cry.. I laid there last night trying to get comfortable enough to get some sleep.. Finally around 3:50am I finally got to sleep.. The pain is awful.. and I cant seem to find relief around any corner. I go to the ER and they tell me there is NOTHING they will or can do for me because I am on enough stuff to kill a horse. I just need this pain to go away. I am seriously considering letting them just remove my bladder and be done with it.. I just dont know anymore. My mom keeps saying think positive.. positive thinking will help.. but I dont think she really realizes how hard that is when you are in so much pain you are ready to just reach up inside of you and rip your bladder right out of your body. I am going to be going back to my urologist this week.. but first I am gonna go to my doc that is handling all my pain management and see what his advice is. Maybe they will admit me just to get me comfortable.. I can only pray they will because I just dont know how much longer I can handle this.