Tomorrow morning I have my second appointment with the pain doctor to start treatment. I will be being put on an opioid pain patch called buprenophine/butrans, and am so scared.
I have never taken pain meds for more than a few days, and only have done so a few times. So being on something every day of the weeks is scaring me to death, especially a patch just seems to many things can go wrong with a patch.
I developed a lot of really horrible side effects from the tricyclic antidepressant I've been taking for many years for my IC, as I became sensitized to it. I am scared of the side effects of the butrans and becoming physically dependant on it as well. And terrified of the withdrawls I'll have from the tricyclic, and worried that the patch wont even do anything for my pain.
I really don't want to go up on the pain patch at home as I'm affraid of it tanking my blood pressure as it's already very low, and really don't want to tapper off of the tricyclic at home due to how nasty the withdrawls are for me.
I've been having panic attacks and insomnia for days leading up to this appointment and have been doing nothing but sobbing, I am so terrified of what is to come.
I don't know how I am going to handle this and bear all that is to come without breaking.
I wish there was another way, and I wish this wasn't happening to me. I keep wishing this was all a bad dream.
I have never taken pain meds for more than a few days, and only have done so a few times. So being on something every day of the weeks is scaring me to death, especially a patch just seems to many things can go wrong with a patch.
I developed a lot of really horrible side effects from the tricyclic antidepressant I've been taking for many years for my IC, as I became sensitized to it. I am scared of the side effects of the butrans and becoming physically dependant on it as well. And terrified of the withdrawls I'll have from the tricyclic, and worried that the patch wont even do anything for my pain.
I really don't want to go up on the pain patch at home as I'm affraid of it tanking my blood pressure as it's already very low, and really don't want to tapper off of the tricyclic at home due to how nasty the withdrawls are for me.
I've been having panic attacks and insomnia for days leading up to this appointment and have been doing nothing but sobbing, I am so terrified of what is to come.
I don't know how I am going to handle this and bear all that is to come without breaking.
I wish there was another way, and I wish this wasn't happening to me. I keep wishing this was all a bad dream.
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