We need a rant thread... I'm so ****** off with life!
I hate that I have something that cannot be helped. It feels so out of control. I hate that I am 20 years old and my life is already completely consumed by two diseases. I hate that I'm in pain every day, all day. I hate that I can't go out to parties with my friends because I have to be in bed and because it would take me a week to recover from just one night. I hate that I'm alone all the time in my house. I hate that my hip is killing me and there's nothing I can do about it. I hate that I have so many opportunities to succeed in life, but I can't because of my body. I hate where my life has ended up and I hate my mother for getting me here. I hate that people expect me to maintain such a positive outlook when they have no idea how much agony I'm in every single day. I hate that I have had to go through so much in such a short period of time. I hate that I have been forced to grow up so quickly and have had my teenage years, supposedly the best years of my life, taken from me by these diseases and the stress that led me to develop them. I HAAAAAAAAAAAAATE LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIFE. I need someone to hold me.
I hate that I have something that cannot be helped. It feels so out of control. I hate that I am 20 years old and my life is already completely consumed by two diseases. I hate that I'm in pain every day, all day. I hate that I can't go out to parties with my friends because I have to be in bed and because it would take me a week to recover from just one night. I hate that I'm alone all the time in my house. I hate that my hip is killing me and there's nothing I can do about it. I hate that I have so many opportunities to succeed in life, but I can't because of my body. I hate where my life has ended up and I hate my mother for getting me here. I hate that people expect me to maintain such a positive outlook when they have no idea how much agony I'm in every single day. I hate that I have had to go through so much in such a short period of time. I hate that I have been forced to grow up so quickly and have had my teenage years, supposedly the best years of my life, taken from me by these diseases and the stress that led me to develop them. I HAAAAAAAAAAAAATE LIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIFE. I need someone to hold me.
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