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Hi everyone;
Well I can report that I have not really had any major flare ups, just an ocasional day here and there with painful days. But not any week long falre ups. Thank god for that.
But the last 2 weeks, so many things happening. I lost a friend, who had MS. We had grown up together as babies we where till about age 12-13 or so, maybe little older. When we where older we lost touch. except seeing eachother here and there once in a while. But she must have been suffering so much for it seems she took her own life. It was really hard. I can remember so manything and it just hit me so hard.
Then 5 days latter, I lost my job. the school i work in is going down finacialy. I was only working 17 hrs a week as it was. Now nothing. I am really at a loss. Besides not having any help before, and still not any. Its impossible. I am trying for unemployment, But i think i will not qualify. I didnt make enough for each quarty earning to be eligable. I was really hopeing for that. Then i went to pay my rent I had to put some on a credit card cos i have not enough money left. I found they had put another person in once my lease was up. I had been resigning this aprtment for the last 4 years. I just wanted to cry. And to keep my apartment need 100$ to resign the lease. which i dont have.
I went to see my doctor today, I have been so depressed lattly, even before i lost my job i was feeling depressed. Now its worse. my heart beat is high was like 120, then 112 when recheck the nurse said she never had it high like that. plus i been sweating like crazy for no reason, I have no idea why. But the doctor say it is nerves doing it.
She is saying i need to see a tharapist. and that my conditions and pain is cos i have mental issues, which makes me upset. I know stress is making it worse. But i dont belive it is what is causing all the problems.
But I do feel i am becomeing more depressed the last month or so. Its all become so over welming. I was to go to the U of M hospital next week, but the cost of gass is so high and its 2 hrs one way.
Now ia m trying to find a job, one which will allow me to work very few hours and can work around me missing work when i have a flare up where i will not have to worry of job loss. I really dont know how to go about this. Today i filled out papers for Disability. But that will take long time and the chances of gettingit are not good.
My ex husband waas to start sendingme the money he owes me and said he will send march 1-2 went to wester union, nope he didnt send it. Really its jus tbeen one thing after another. I dont know what to do. Since i dont have any help frommy family, i deffently have no suport at all. When i call my mom she just says i dont know what to tell you any more.
Maybe a councler would help, but no money to pay for it, so its not possible, I am really afraid to see what is coming next. If anyone has any ideas, please let me know. This work issue is where i am stuck. Since to keep the health insurance and prescription coverage, and food assistants, I have to remain low income, 500$ gross income. Or full time with all benifits. But lets face it. full time isnt going to work. I cant usualy mange the 17 hours i was working.
Thanks for any advice
stacy
Well I can report that I have not really had any major flare ups, just an ocasional day here and there with painful days. But not any week long falre ups. Thank god for that.
But the last 2 weeks, so many things happening. I lost a friend, who had MS. We had grown up together as babies we where till about age 12-13 or so, maybe little older. When we where older we lost touch. except seeing eachother here and there once in a while. But she must have been suffering so much for it seems she took her own life. It was really hard. I can remember so manything and it just hit me so hard.
Then 5 days latter, I lost my job. the school i work in is going down finacialy. I was only working 17 hrs a week as it was. Now nothing. I am really at a loss. Besides not having any help before, and still not any. Its impossible. I am trying for unemployment, But i think i will not qualify. I didnt make enough for each quarty earning to be eligable. I was really hopeing for that. Then i went to pay my rent I had to put some on a credit card cos i have not enough money left. I found they had put another person in once my lease was up. I had been resigning this aprtment for the last 4 years. I just wanted to cry. And to keep my apartment need 100$ to resign the lease. which i dont have.
I went to see my doctor today, I have been so depressed lattly, even before i lost my job i was feeling depressed. Now its worse. my heart beat is high was like 120, then 112 when recheck the nurse said she never had it high like that. plus i been sweating like crazy for no reason, I have no idea why. But the doctor say it is nerves doing it.
She is saying i need to see a tharapist. and that my conditions and pain is cos i have mental issues, which makes me upset. I know stress is making it worse. But i dont belive it is what is causing all the problems.
But I do feel i am becomeing more depressed the last month or so. Its all become so over welming. I was to go to the U of M hospital next week, but the cost of gass is so high and its 2 hrs one way.
Now ia m trying to find a job, one which will allow me to work very few hours and can work around me missing work when i have a flare up where i will not have to worry of job loss. I really dont know how to go about this. Today i filled out papers for Disability. But that will take long time and the chances of gettingit are not good.
My ex husband waas to start sendingme the money he owes me and said he will send march 1-2 went to wester union, nope he didnt send it. Really its jus tbeen one thing after another. I dont know what to do. Since i dont have any help frommy family, i deffently have no suport at all. When i call my mom she just says i dont know what to tell you any more.
Maybe a councler would help, but no money to pay for it, so its not possible, I am really afraid to see what is coming next. If anyone has any ideas, please let me know. This work issue is where i am stuck. Since to keep the health insurance and prescription coverage, and food assistants, I have to remain low income, 500$ gross income. Or full time with all benifits. But lets face it. full time isnt going to work. I cant usualy mange the 17 hours i was working.
Thanks for any advice
stacy
diagnosed in March 2006.
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