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    I am home and back on Elavil. I am so groggy and dizzy. This post is probably going to make no sense because i get dizzy when i try to read so bear with me and excuse my spelling. There is only one week of classes left and i am falling apart. I have not slept through the night in the past two months. I am not just talking about trips to the bathroom which is all the way down the hall. I am talking hard core pain. I have not been able to do any of my work. I have no energy, no motivation, no nothing. I so want to quit school. I had to get extension on everything. I feel like such a failure because i cannot keep up like everyone us. in my headi know that i am not like evryone else, but heart doesn't listen to my head very often. i do not know when I will be back to school. When i do go back i can look forward to five papers, two projects, and three final exams. Plus I have a summer internship that i don't if I will be able to keep. I hate this disese for what itis doing to my body, but i hate what it is doing to my spirit even more. I just needed to get this off my chest. [img]frown.gif[/img]
    IC-diagnosed August 1998 with cystoscopy and hydro
    IBS-diagnosed in 1998 probably had for majority of my life
    Fibro-Diagnosed in 2010
    Other conditions: Depression, High Cholesterol (irony)

    Primary symptoms: PAIN, bloating, frequency, urgency, fatigue

    Current Meds: Elavil 10mg at bedtime, Toviaz 4mg at bedtime, Lyrica 3x a day

    Failed meds: Vesicare, Detrol LA, Celexa, Vioxx, Celebrex, Ditropan XL, Elmiron
    "In the middle of difficulty lies opportunity."

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    Dear Grinch


    First of all, I'm sending you the biggest, most gigantic hugs in the world!!! To tell you the truth, I know exactly how you're feeling right now. You basically summed up my whole 4 years of undergrad!

    I know you feel like absolute crap right now, but you can't forget that this will soon be over and you're going to be OK!!!!!! Elavil makes me really groggy as well. Maybe you could ask your doc for another drug in the tricyclic family that has less side-effects (I took Desipramine, but another one might work better for you).

    And don't forget we're all here rooting for you and supporting you. College is a challenge just on its own, but combined with IC it's a million times harder! Your courage, strength, determination and dedication to your education is clear and I'm really proud of you! It also makes your degree somehow even more valuable and special knowing what you had to endure to graduate.

    Feel free to email me any time [email protected] and good luck through your last week!! YOU CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!!!!

    Lots of hugs,
    Alexa [img]smile.gif[/img]
    My story of healing and hope