After pondering what to say as an introduction for a week now I still have no great inspiration so please bear with me as I pour my thoughts into my first post on a message forum anywhere on anything.
It's official that I have IC. While it WAS a relief to finally know what was wrong with me I have found out more of what exactly this means and it scares the heck out of me.
After a cystoscopy in early January 2011 my IC was at long last diagnosed. Shortly after that I was put on a weekly DMSO treatment for 6 weeks and told that we'd see how I responded to the treatment. After the 6 weeks I was told that although it obviously was somewhat helping I'd have to continue to do these treatments on a 3 or 4 week rotation essentially forever. It was in that moment my world changed. Going from the understanding I'd have these 6 weeks of DMSO treatments that I'd have to endure to to take care of this to this is an incurable disease with massive life quality implications is huge. A huge moment in life that I assume everyone reading this has had but I'm still reeling from. How does one get your head around this is forever, this is how I am, what I can expect... I don't know... but I'm trying. With two very small children I have to try so I can find a way to have more time with them and not in the bathroom. I want to be the dad that can coach them soccer or whatever but I don't know how realistic that is anymore.
Having found the IC diet list here has been an enormous help. This generic advice from my doctor to avoid acidic food doesn't even come close to this list. I do hope that one day I can add my own food discoveries to it with the foods I like but aren't on there. It sure has changed my approach of food=good to needing to read everything on a label to ensure it isn't going to hurt me. To be honest, I'm not sure how I didn't notice that these foods were hurting me so bad... but perhaps I was just used to being in pain all the time.
I've been pouring through the forums trying to get a better understanding of what this and have found it enlightening and scary at the same time. Reading the section on very painful DMSO treatments has already helped as I requested a smaller catheter which did make the excruciating painful process a little more bearable. By the way, am I correct that these DMSO treatments are also called instillations?
I am going to be ordering some of the books here to read in more detail on everything but the amount of information out there is a big frustration. I am so disappointed in the medical system that it has taken me so long to find anything about IC and if I hadn't linked to this site from the obsolete IC Canada site I still don't think I would have found this one. It does make me wonder where are all the Western Canadian IC patients? How can there be no support group in Calgary, AB when we have far more than a million people in this city now? I know I've done my fair share of support group mocking over the years but wow... has my viewpoint ever changed now. Perhaps there is an informal one out there that isn't listed in the international section?
I feel like I'm rambling on but this is how my thoughts are just spinning through my head these days. I must say I am very greatful to have found this site and hope meet, chat, message others here that have been there and will be able to help me help myself. Who knows... perhaps can plan an IC meetup picnic one day next to the longest line of portapotties you have ever seen.
Stephen
It's official that I have IC. While it WAS a relief to finally know what was wrong with me I have found out more of what exactly this means and it scares the heck out of me.
After a cystoscopy in early January 2011 my IC was at long last diagnosed. Shortly after that I was put on a weekly DMSO treatment for 6 weeks and told that we'd see how I responded to the treatment. After the 6 weeks I was told that although it obviously was somewhat helping I'd have to continue to do these treatments on a 3 or 4 week rotation essentially forever. It was in that moment my world changed. Going from the understanding I'd have these 6 weeks of DMSO treatments that I'd have to endure to to take care of this to this is an incurable disease with massive life quality implications is huge. A huge moment in life that I assume everyone reading this has had but I'm still reeling from. How does one get your head around this is forever, this is how I am, what I can expect... I don't know... but I'm trying. With two very small children I have to try so I can find a way to have more time with them and not in the bathroom. I want to be the dad that can coach them soccer or whatever but I don't know how realistic that is anymore.
Having found the IC diet list here has been an enormous help. This generic advice from my doctor to avoid acidic food doesn't even come close to this list. I do hope that one day I can add my own food discoveries to it with the foods I like but aren't on there. It sure has changed my approach of food=good to needing to read everything on a label to ensure it isn't going to hurt me. To be honest, I'm not sure how I didn't notice that these foods were hurting me so bad... but perhaps I was just used to being in pain all the time.
I've been pouring through the forums trying to get a better understanding of what this and have found it enlightening and scary at the same time. Reading the section on very painful DMSO treatments has already helped as I requested a smaller catheter which did make the excruciating painful process a little more bearable. By the way, am I correct that these DMSO treatments are also called instillations?
I am going to be ordering some of the books here to read in more detail on everything but the amount of information out there is a big frustration. I am so disappointed in the medical system that it has taken me so long to find anything about IC and if I hadn't linked to this site from the obsolete IC Canada site I still don't think I would have found this one. It does make me wonder where are all the Western Canadian IC patients? How can there be no support group in Calgary, AB when we have far more than a million people in this city now? I know I've done my fair share of support group mocking over the years but wow... has my viewpoint ever changed now. Perhaps there is an informal one out there that isn't listed in the international section?
I feel like I'm rambling on but this is how my thoughts are just spinning through my head these days. I must say I am very greatful to have found this site and hope meet, chat, message others here that have been there and will be able to help me help myself. Who knows... perhaps can plan an IC meetup picnic one day next to the longest line of portapotties you have ever seen.
Stephen
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