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When one door closes...
...another one opens. I should have written this a while ago, but I've needed time to digest the things that have been happening. Our fertility treatments didn't work. They ended a month ago w/o success. I felt very sad for a while, and needed some time to mourn. I really thought that I would be pregnant by now.
I decided that I would take a year to treat my bladder, even though that felt terrifying because what little fertility I have is sifting through the hourglass of my biological clock!
Then, I had a thought that I had considered several years ago - foster parenting. Back then, my husband wasn't interested. I think that he thought we could conceive a baby ourselves, once we started seriously trying.
The past year has been very convincing for us both - infertility is tough, but add IC to the mix and it is overwhelming!!! So we are talking about fostering to adopt. I have always felt so burdened that there were children already in the world who are unloved and hurting, while we long to love and raise a child. Our Gracie has been such a treasure to us, and I know that she would be a loving, compassionate big sister to a child who needs love and care.
We would chose to have a child younger than Grace, for safety reasons and so that she could be a positive influence on a younger child rather than being possibly negatively influenced by an older child. I also think it's important that she doesn't lose her "place" in the family as the first and oldest child. When a new baby is brought into a home, there is some comfort for the older child in knowing that although they have to share mom and dad, they hold a place in the family that is special and different than the baby's place as youngest. It's a huge shift to go from being an only child to being a sibling, let alone a younger one. I think that Gracie needs that security in order to be able to adapt to the changes that will take place. Everyone, equal in love and unique in person, heart and position in the family. Does that make sense?
Anyway, I am feeling hopeful once again.
This is some wild and crazy journey! I wonder if I needed to go through the past year of IF and IC to set the stage for fostering in my husband's heart as well as my own. We may still conceive - no one knows more than I do that miracles happen. I kiss one good morning every day! But we're heading in a different direction now. Please keep us in your prayers, okay? I'll post more later.
Oh, and by the way, if I ever just kind of...POOF!!!...disappear off the face of the cyber-earth, please be patient. My computer is acting up and needs some maintenance work done. You guys are always in my thoughts, even if my computer is denying me access!!!!
Love and blessings,
Kelly
I decided that I would take a year to treat my bladder, even though that felt terrifying because what little fertility I have is sifting through the hourglass of my biological clock!
Then, I had a thought that I had considered several years ago - foster parenting. Back then, my husband wasn't interested. I think that he thought we could conceive a baby ourselves, once we started seriously trying.
The past year has been very convincing for us both - infertility is tough, but add IC to the mix and it is overwhelming!!! So we are talking about fostering to adopt. I have always felt so burdened that there were children already in the world who are unloved and hurting, while we long to love and raise a child. Our Gracie has been such a treasure to us, and I know that she would be a loving, compassionate big sister to a child who needs love and care.
We would chose to have a child younger than Grace, for safety reasons and so that she could be a positive influence on a younger child rather than being possibly negatively influenced by an older child. I also think it's important that she doesn't lose her "place" in the family as the first and oldest child. When a new baby is brought into a home, there is some comfort for the older child in knowing that although they have to share mom and dad, they hold a place in the family that is special and different than the baby's place as youngest. It's a huge shift to go from being an only child to being a sibling, let alone a younger one. I think that Gracie needs that security in order to be able to adapt to the changes that will take place. Everyone, equal in love and unique in person, heart and position in the family. Does that make sense?
Anyway, I am feeling hopeful once again.
This is some wild and crazy journey! I wonder if I needed to go through the past year of IF and IC to set the stage for fostering in my husband's heart as well as my own. We may still conceive - no one knows more than I do that miracles happen. I kiss one good morning every day! But we're heading in a different direction now. Please keep us in your prayers, okay? I'll post more later.Oh, and by the way, if I ever just kind of...POOF!!!...disappear off the face of the cyber-earth, please be patient. My computer is acting up and needs some maintenance work done. You guys are always in my thoughts, even if my computer is denying me access!!!!
Love and blessings,
Kelly
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