Hi,
I know I am new to the boards, but I could really use some support. I am usually a very positive person, but lately, I feel like I could just sit and cry like a baby.
I'm just going to vent a little so I don't break down emotionally.
My list of medical conditions reads like the chart of an 80-year old woman, and I am only 31.
Chronic/Refractory Epilepsy
Lupus
Sjogren's
Celiac
IC
GERD
The list continues on and on...but I'll stop.
I have been poked, cut, bruised, scanned, and biopsied more times than I can count. Honestly, it is too much to think about at once. To be frank, I hurt somewhere on my body all the time. I dread "routine" check-ups at my specialists' offices because they always find something new wrong with me, usually via bloodwork or biopsy.
I have a Master's degree that I worked so very hard to achieve, but I am currently unemployed. No one wants to hire a person with chronic seizures who can't drive. I take between 20 and 30 prescription pills a day just to survive.
The part that makes me so mad I could scream is that I truly want to be an active, productive person in society. I am a good, happy person who is stuck in the body of a sickly person.
If you read this, thank you. I just needed to "unload" on someone besides my husband.
God Bless. -J
I know I am new to the boards, but I could really use some support. I am usually a very positive person, but lately, I feel like I could just sit and cry like a baby.

I'm just going to vent a little so I don't break down emotionally.

My list of medical conditions reads like the chart of an 80-year old woman, and I am only 31.
Chronic/Refractory Epilepsy
Lupus
Sjogren's
Celiac
IC
GERD
The list continues on and on...but I'll stop.
I have been poked, cut, bruised, scanned, and biopsied more times than I can count. Honestly, it is too much to think about at once. To be frank, I hurt somewhere on my body all the time. I dread "routine" check-ups at my specialists' offices because they always find something new wrong with me, usually via bloodwork or biopsy.
I have a Master's degree that I worked so very hard to achieve, but I am currently unemployed. No one wants to hire a person with chronic seizures who can't drive. I take between 20 and 30 prescription pills a day just to survive.
The part that makes me so mad I could scream is that I truly want to be an active, productive person in society. I am a good, happy person who is stuck in the body of a sickly person.

If you read this, thank you. I just needed to "unload" on someone besides my husband.
God Bless. -J
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