I Can't take life like this anymore...my children have no respect for me. Yes, my older daughter is loving but she just completely went ballistic last night because I didn't buy the correct shampoo. Apparently, only one kind keeps her hair from falling out
She came out of the shower and I went back to ask her if there was another way she could have asked me to buy the other type of shampoo and she denied being angry or rude...WHATEVER...I've also been putting up with my eleven year old just treating me like a servant no matter how I feel. I can be curled in pain and crying and she'll storm into my room and demand that I find something she lost (but she thinks I did) I had a hellecious weekend with her because I had to get her room ready, as well aas the rest of thehouse, for the carpet cleaners today.( the cats had urinated in her room and I was not putting up with that smell for more than the weekend. she didn't care....she would rather have slept and had friends in that stinky room than organize and clean it. Her friends were grossed out) My husband doesn't see much of this because he is overwhelmed with trying to get stuff from work done ...But he has seen a bit this weekend and really stomped her , which surprised her. The final straw for me last night was she came out her room looking for her "script" (a small play she's doing for her class) her room has been stripped down and that was loose papers so I carefully clipped them together and put them in a box with her "valubles". She yelled "GREAT MOM, Just GREAT...MESS UP MY STUFF AND LEAVE STUFF TO GET WRINKLED and lost" at that point I just lost it and said " I cant even be in the same room with anyone in my family without being blamed for something, I am SICK of this ****!!!" I stomped to my room, slammed the door...my husband did come back a few minutes later (that was a first) and ask what happened and I told him it was too complicated to get into in the 3 minutes he was going to give me (I could tell as he was pacing in front of the door) so he left. Later, he came to bed and woke me up. I told him it wasn't his fault, necessarily. I was tired of fighting the kids, me getting no respect, looking like an idiot in front of my parents (oh, my daughter was playing the interupt mom and correct everything she says game in front of my parents Friday....This child does not respond to grounding, losing privilideges....nothing), no help with housework, no compassion with pain, utter loneliness, (I was honest, I said we never touched much less had sex) and my life is going nowhere. I need support, I need help, and no one will help. My counselor wants to do a marital counseling session which I think he would agree too....He did hold me for a while last night while a bawled myself to sleep.
Gotta go, it's drug day....(doctor day) I'm so tired. Is that normal for you guys...I just want to sleep all the time.
Traceh

Gotta go, it's drug day....(doctor day) I'm so tired. Is that normal for you guys...I just want to sleep all the time.
Traceh
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