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    I was watching a funny show that had a baby that talked to its parents. For some reason I realized I will never be pregnant. I'll never be a mommy, grandmother or feel a baby move inside of me. I will never have the joy of giving birth. I mean I've known for a long time the baby days for me were over but for some reason at that moment it was final.

  • #2
    Aww Mary.. (((((((((hugs))))))))

    That is sad, But you are a wonderful person and there are other things you can do to have children in your life.. Have you ever thought about signing up for that big brother big sister program?

    And by the way you are going to have some babies.. They might be a little furry but thats
    Btw how is are kitty doing.. Still eating you out of house and home?..

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    • #3
      Oh Sweetie,

      I'm so sorry you're having a bad time. I know there is nothing I can say to change things, but I'm thinking of you and wishing you many fur babies to fill your lap and heart.

      (I've got kitties... think UPS will deliver? )




      • #4
        I'm so sorry-nothing more that I can say- but like the others have said, your furbabies can help you fill the empty space in your heart and lap. Take care of yourself.


        • #5
          I know that there is nothing I can say that'll help you. My sister went through total hysterectomy at 30 yo. She has no children. She joined support groups online that helped her tremendously. Knowing that others were going through what she was going through. Much like this for our IC. I don't know your exact situation, but there's infertility support groups, hysterectomy support groups, etc. Good Luck! I hope you truly find fullfillment in your life!

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          • #6
            I suppose I could buy baby cloths and dress Patches up in them. A couple of pink frilly dresses with a matching hat. She didn't even want a collar on so I am guessing dressing is out too. I don't know, having children was my one and only life thing I wanted to really do. Old age has set in and the clock has rung.

            Missy, maybe FEDEX overnight would be the way to go shipping the little guys. The size of patches stomach I'm thinking she has to have at least 5 in there.

            leelee, yes she is still eating the house. I made a big batch of chicken soup today and she is the only one who likes my chicken soup or she is really starving and has to eat it to keep the little monsters happy. Funny to see her lick her mouth after she has had a good meal. She is happy and set for another 2 hours.


            • #7
              ***BIG HUGZ***

              I know that's tough thought to have. I have similar thoughts myself, only 22 and I don't think I will be able to have babies either...except the furry kind. Some days, I can except it; others, it gets the best of me. Big Brothers Big Sisters is a great idea, I've thought about joining myself lately.
              Tommi XOXO

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              • #8
                I went through a very hard time with those thoughts 2 years ago.
                I realized that since I got IC when I went off the bc pill & the only way to get it to even manageable with treatments was to go back on it, I don't think I'll ever dare to go off it again. I think I went through a mourning period about it, but it eventually became a thought I can handle most of the time. I still can't deal with baby showers & just send my gift & good wishes, but I can now spend time with my friends & their babies without falling apart afterwards.

                (And actually, I spent 4 hours the other day with a friend & her 16 month old. He doesn't have any words yet & screams over everything he wants or doesn't want or likes or doesn't like. Basically he tantrums a LOT. I came home so relieved to my quiet house with

                Hang in there, it gets easier.

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                • #9
                  Mary I am so sorry I did not see this thread. I am so sorry you are feeling low about this and I wish I could do something about it to brighten your day.

                  You were telling me about the kids you babysit and how they did not want to go home but stay with you. I know you make an impression on those children.

                  Oh you gonna have little furry babies soon. They are so cute when they are little. When is the due date, do you know?

                  Hope you have a wonderful day today.

                  Sending many hugs, Trishann


                  • #10
                    Hi Trishann, I had predicted around April 1st for the kittens to be born but I was way off on that one. I've pretty much given up hope on Patches sharing the kittens with me. Maybe she wants to just keep them for herself and never give birth. She keeps getting wider and wider but can still jump miles up onto something.

                    I wonder why some of us get to feeling like this? Yes, we can have babies but why do we want them so much? Do men go through this as well? I just wish I had lived my life differently. If I had known all my niece and nephews would be taken away from me at an early age I would have spent time looking for a husband to have my own instead of spending time babysitting them. It sounds mean I know but I wouldn't have had to go through the heartache of having them torn away either. Sure do miss changing diapers.


                    • #11
                      Mary I really do think it is normal to feel this way and I can almost bet you that others are feeling this way too. I know you must miss your niece and nephew dearly, and I am sorry that you don't see them. That would break my heart too.

                      You sound like a person that have so much to offer and so much love. I hope opportunities will come your way to be able to give it out like you are doing here.

                      Sending many hugs, Trishann