so I have to start an exercise program.....

[MakinIT]

......and I am a complete wimp and out of shape. I have been so sick. I hate to be a "usta person" (makes me think of wrinkly old men leaning on canes talking about chicks they usta pick up because of their awesome pecs... ) but I usta bench press 110 pounds, leg press 400, and row 60....as well as do a hell of an aerobic exercise. My husband would ***** and say women should be soft, not hard. (so he has his wish and now we never has sex) So in PT the other day, my PT tells me it is time to start working on my arms. I went straight to the machines, set the seat exactly perfect and had my posture and breathing perfect on the exercise. My PT said "You've done this before...like a few times?" I just laughed and said yeah...I wasn't rowing 5 pounds and getting exhausted though.....AAAARGHHHH. Oh, you guys, I am so disgusted with myself. I am so weak, and so easily tired...Do you work out when you are tired? How did you all start? I know the recommendation is 5 minutes to start with in short burst through out the day. I have a community center by my house I am joining and going to start working out again. I am so lo I am afraid of falling. If I have a bad bladder flare, or this other issue I have going of right now I fear any progress will get lost...

talk to you later

[ngazerro]

I too need to start a program. I keep saying I am going to join a gym, but I have not done it yet. Between my boys, working and keeping up the house I get really tired by the end of the day. I bet if we started working out more we would have more energy. I have started walking again when the boys have soccer practice. sometimes we walk five miles and the next day I really hurt, but it feels good doing it...

Nina

[kadi]

Hopefully, just doing a little every day will help you feel better & better. It really helps me, I find. Mostly I walk, but I also do a little yoga & sometimes light gym workouts.

[MakinIT]

I know...the endorphins kick in and all but I am sooo UGH! and damn, the snickerdoodles my daugher made today are good (Highly annoying, dammit) I roll on my Thera ball during family time in the front room but that creates a "mom can I play on it ?" situation. (Mom's not playing...yeah...it looks like I'm hippity hoppitying and watching TV upside down...what's not fun about THAT?) Man...I really thought stuff has just gotten heavier and to realize how weak I truly am. I can't blame it all on my medical situation, I've just gotten depressed and trying to break out it is tough. But, I am tomorrow...wimpy weights, wimpy walk, a couple times....gotta go

[Berkshire Road]

Makin It -- I am in the exact same situation as you. Got read the riot act by my doctors about needing to start building up again, and my husband agrees (not bc. he doesn't like the way I look, but out of genuine concern for my health). And they're all right. BUT -- I "usta" be an athlete, a real, honest-to-goodness award winning competitive athlete, and even in adulthood I kept in shape. Now my body is a mass of jelly. I just feel like, when I look at the distance I'll have to travel to be even just normal, let alone fit, I cringe.

So, I'm not going to look at that distance. I'm going to set small goals for myself. Next week I'm going swimming with my mom twice (well, I may walk in the water, it depends how bad I really am), and I'm going to try to walk about 15 minutes on two other days. If it's nice, I'll go outside and if not, there's a treadmill in my family room just looking at me reproachfully! LOL

Listen, if you want, you and I can try to keep each other honest. PM me if you want to be 'exercise buddies,' otherwise, good luck to you!

[MakinIT]

Once again Carolyn...I'm so glad your name is changed although it was very pretty...But if I can't say it, I can't commit it to memory. Major Brain fart...But yeah...I got my gym card with my forced grin on it today. I am checking out the classes...ugh. Have I ever mentioned I hate sweating? I hate heat? One reason my father in law go around and around during the day. Between his smell and the heat in the house...I turn the heat down, vacuum with carpet fresh, febreeze everything and open the house (it's 60 degrees...not like its freezing) He *****es about the "stink" (we are on year 4 with no baths for him) and the cold. He actually smells like, well, poooo. I started stomping around yesterday morning and scrubbbing everything, complaining of the smell in the house, how it reeked of SH...T (as he sat there listening to my rant). They changed my meds so I take ALL my anti depressants in AM, plus added 5 mgs of lexapro to 300 mgs of Well butrin. I am a whirlwind of mania for the first 5 hours, I mellow in the afternoon, but I have slept well in the night for the past 3 nights. (it's been SIX DAMN MONTHS) ....I'm telling you this in case you are wondering where I suddenly got the energy to do this and be snippy when I used to just complain....I have had it. I told my husband to get his fathers ass in the tub or to call a medical aide and have them do it. I can't live like this...Yuck.

But I will get away at the gym. I do have to be home every day by 3 to do Mom stuff as far as pick up kids, fix dinner and such....But do you know what it 's like to have a portable human poop smelling (adult) hanging on you in the kitchen as you are trying to fix dinner. I swear, as soon as start to cook, or clean, he shuffles in moves as slow as possible and sees me waiting for him to move and askes "oh..I'm in your way?" I used to be nice and say oh just go ahead but then he would just be in my way for the rest of the time. Now I say "YES". He came into "help" make fruit salad and snot was running from his nose the entire time. I put it on the table but passed around to everyone not to eat it and why. He couldn't figure why no one would eat it. AND his doctor is giving him his driver's license back next week.

I don't know why I got on this rant. Perhaps because I am going nuts. This disability may be easier to take if I didn't have the stinkly ol grouch sitting in the corner with a storm cloud over his head. (AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH) That was a Four year scream of agony from dealing with him. He's a mean ol' crab.But I am going to be working out at a gym so I can stay away from it.

Anyway....You all let me know how your exercise is going. I think we need to have an IC marathon...portapotties every 50 feet...etc...Ah..Or weight lifting, as long as we don't have incontinence issues..(I can see a squaat lift now....better have the absorbant pads underneath, ha, ha, that would be me...just a little leak now when a I laugh too hard.)

You are all my sense of sanity...thanks much for that.

Tracey

[Berkshire Road]

Oh, no: My name has always been Carolyn! LOL

God, I'm sorry about your FIL. You are well within your rights to demand that someone put him in a bathtub -- or better yet, a nursing home -- sounds like he has dementia to me. I don't know how you manage to keep your sense of humor, you are amazing. I can't believe they're letting him drive, but cheer up: Maybe he'll get lost.

So you're going to an actual gym. Good for you! At this point I think I would be too embarassed to do that. Well, I am going to the pool, but I'm going with my 70 year old arthritic mother. I figure I look okay next to her, LOL. She has been at this for two years and can now swim six laps... I think I can do at least that much, bc. I've been a swimmer all my life except for the past two years of IC hell. My daughter who just turned 12 is a comptetitve swimmer; an average practice for her is about 4,000 meters of swimming plus dry land training (which begins with 400 crunches... I can't even imagine that... I think I could do four, maybe. Anyway, she finds this whole idea of Mom and Gram getting all changed and all to swim six laps hysterical. (Thank you, Susannah.) I just want to build up some normal strength and, I hope, lose some weight.

Well, post or PM me with your progress, ok? I could use some inspiration; if I know another IC'er is doing it, I have no excuse, LOL. Yesterday I walked a lot more than 15 minutes bc. I was feeling ok, so I grabbed onto the moment and dragged the family out on multiple errands. Like 4 hours' worth. Today I feel like I ran the marathon. Pathetic!

[MakinIT]

Carolyn

Ugh...I just typed a nice message to you and was getting ready to submit it toyou, and dozed off (I'm fighting narcolepsy from my darn meds) and I jerked awake and hit the stupid delete key. It took me a half an hour. GRRRRR. I've loooked everywhere for the stupid thing.

Oh well, I'll send more later.

Tracey

[Berkshire Road]

Doesn't matter -- it's the thought that counts.

[Berkshire Road]

Oh, Bridget, I could boogie board and body surf all day... you are so lucky to have warm water in May! In New Jersey it gets sort of warm around August, but we go in anyway starting in June.

That kind of exercise I could handle.

Couldn't go swimming with Mom today bc. I got my period, so I went for a walk and I think I did a mile. A slow mile. But a mile nonetheless. So I think I still get credit for doing something, right?

Come on, Tracey, I need you to cheer for me!

[MakinIT]

Ha, ha, ha....I live in Washington...for gosh sakes's....Yeah...I remember body surfing when I was like 13 a not even noticing the the freezing water...(at the beach)

told my daughter a minuter ago we'd go to Firstenburg and sign up and she said OK but I wanted to started working out tonight and it's already "oh...I'm so tired...." guess it's alone tonight.
I'm pooped, need a nap, I'll write tommorrow.

[MakinIT]

I meant my daughter didn't want to work out tonight... I am moving slow tonight. I've been put on a new anti depressant and I feel incredibly slow now. The first 3 days I went back on, at the full dose, I was manic but now I am adjusted. It's been now about week 1/2 and I've put on a pound a day. So, the pill is in the trash. (Yes my food consumption is going up, but where a month ago I couldn't stand the smell of food, now, I can't eat enough. I still eat small portions thank goodness, but I can not afford to gain weight as I have to start worrying about Diabetes.) I've added some vitamins/supplements to my medicine box (I always have my meds set up ahead of time for the week) It looks like I'm an AIDs patient or an organ recipient with the amount of pills in my med box.
I'm wondering if my husband went and got the pineapple for dinner...decided the meatballs were too spicy today and wanted to cut it with pineapple.

"sigh" I just feel blah tonight. I have the serious blahs. Is that normal for someone with Fibromyalgia/IC and other sources of chronic pain? I know depression happens but I don't really feel that right know, it's just BLAH.

Anyway...Take care....work out...work your Butts off. I'll do the same.

Tracey

[MakinIT]

Knock knock...helloooo....is everyone slumbering? Come on, I walked 3/4 of a mile (thank GOD for ipods) did 7 mins on recumbant bike and 6 on the elliptical...(i used to go go for an hour and people would get SO mad...but I weighed 230 then and couldnt lose weight for the life of me. (I got diabetes, my naturalpath put me on an extreme diet. (lost 80 in 7 months) since IC, I've regained some but it has been up and down.

Eek
I can't beliieve how tired I am.

[Berkshire Road]

Yay Tracey!

Sorry, I actually was slumbering. Congratulations. I walked one mile and a little today. Nothing else.

[SrMaggie]

Finally, I got started exercising and promptly dropped a box of books on my foot and now have a stress fracture! Drives me crazy. I do have some exercises for old ladies that can be done from a chair, so I think I'll try those. I look like I've been in battle. I have a brace on my arm for carpal tunnel and a cast on my foot. REach the speed limit and I fall apart.