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Well some of you asked that i tell you how things went with gettiny my things from my house....
As you know last week I had texted messaged my mom about getting the rest of my things from the house. She told me should would pack them up for me and let me know when I could pick up my things.
Sunday Morning (yesterday) at 9am I got a text message from my mom. It read "you can pick up your boxes today if you want. we have a meeting to go to in new rochelle,ny till about 3. Your boxes are by the side door under tarps. not much clothes. there is a fragile box on top ok?" I read it and started to cry histerically. She didnt even want to see me? she put my things under tarps like it's garbage!!!! I felt as though she had stabbed me in my heart. my family has said some pretty rude and hurtful things but this is by far the worst. My own mother didnt even have the nerve to give me my things in person! Wow, i was shocked.... I guess i hoped taht she would want to see me. Turns out i was very very wrong.
After that text message I answered her and said thank you. Then i got angry and said "i have some old clothes that dont fit me anymore, i will leave them under the tarp for bekah to have." then i said "i guess you didnt want to see me... i understand." she didnt answer.... then i said " thanks cor thinking so low of me that you would put my things under a tarp and not wanting to give them to me in person... but if that is the way you feel than i guess i will have to live with it." She said she was crying, and then didnt answer me anymore. They only care about them crying, they dont care when i'm crying.
I went to pick up my things... cried the whole way there. There were about 4 boxes for me under a blue tarp. One had my old bunnie rabbit my grandma made me... (i lost it) she gave me 4 precious moments that were my grandmother's and hers to remind me of them.... along with photo albums of when i was little with my family and my bible and jewlery boxes and pictures. I put my boxes in my little car. As I shut my trunk my neighbor mary... said is that you rachel?? I walked over to her crying and she ask what was wrong. I told her everything. She felt so bad and proceeded to tell me she heard what happened and that over the past 5 years she's seen a major change in my family and the way they act. For example on holidays my family used to bake cookies and make cards to give to our neighbors. We used to walk to their house and give them the cookies. Mary said that thye dont do that anymore... they keep to themselves and they hardly talk to them. My paretns used to talk to my neighbors all the time... not anymore!!! My family thinks they cant have talk or communicate with people who arent of the same faith there for they keep to themselves.
Anyways I brouth everything back to where i live now. I sorted through my things. At least now i know where I stand with my family. I'm just going to leave things alone. I'm going to miss them but it's not worth crying over anymore, I have to move on and pray that someday they will see that they are wrong. I'll have to leave it up to god to decide.
Thanks for listening all
Hugs
Rachel
As you know last week I had texted messaged my mom about getting the rest of my things from the house. She told me should would pack them up for me and let me know when I could pick up my things.
Sunday Morning (yesterday) at 9am I got a text message from my mom. It read "you can pick up your boxes today if you want. we have a meeting to go to in new rochelle,ny till about 3. Your boxes are by the side door under tarps. not much clothes. there is a fragile box on top ok?" I read it and started to cry histerically. She didnt even want to see me? she put my things under tarps like it's garbage!!!! I felt as though she had stabbed me in my heart. my family has said some pretty rude and hurtful things but this is by far the worst. My own mother didnt even have the nerve to give me my things in person! Wow, i was shocked.... I guess i hoped taht she would want to see me. Turns out i was very very wrong.
After that text message I answered her and said thank you. Then i got angry and said "i have some old clothes that dont fit me anymore, i will leave them under the tarp for bekah to have." then i said "i guess you didnt want to see me... i understand." she didnt answer.... then i said " thanks cor thinking so low of me that you would put my things under a tarp and not wanting to give them to me in person... but if that is the way you feel than i guess i will have to live with it." She said she was crying, and then didnt answer me anymore. They only care about them crying, they dont care when i'm crying.
I went to pick up my things... cried the whole way there. There were about 4 boxes for me under a blue tarp. One had my old bunnie rabbit my grandma made me... (i lost it) she gave me 4 precious moments that were my grandmother's and hers to remind me of them.... along with photo albums of when i was little with my family and my bible and jewlery boxes and pictures. I put my boxes in my little car. As I shut my trunk my neighbor mary... said is that you rachel?? I walked over to her crying and she ask what was wrong. I told her everything. She felt so bad and proceeded to tell me she heard what happened and that over the past 5 years she's seen a major change in my family and the way they act. For example on holidays my family used to bake cookies and make cards to give to our neighbors. We used to walk to their house and give them the cookies. Mary said that thye dont do that anymore... they keep to themselves and they hardly talk to them. My paretns used to talk to my neighbors all the time... not anymore!!! My family thinks they cant have talk or communicate with people who arent of the same faith there for they keep to themselves.
Anyways I brouth everything back to where i live now. I sorted through my things. At least now i know where I stand with my family. I'm just going to leave things alone. I'm going to miss them but it's not worth crying over anymore, I have to move on and pray that someday they will see that they are wrong. I'll have to leave it up to god to decide.
Thanks for listening all
Hugs
Rachel
Please try not to take it personally, you didn't do a thing wrong.
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