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So I just want to complain....
Ok, guys and gals, I just want to whine for a minute.
Lately, sex has been absolutely excruciating.
I have always had pain with sex, but had managed to get a lot of it under control by finding a great lube and some positions that don't allow my husband to hit my bladder head-on during lovemaking. I've had adequate pain meds - but importantly, my IC was doing very well for quite some time.
Suddenly, though, over the last few months, the pain has increased and changed. Previously, my pain was divided into two distinct parts - a "ring" of pain around the vaginal opening on penetration, which is due to pelvic floor dysfunction and could be relieved by relaxation techniques, and the a deeper pain on thrusting when dear hubby would hit the bladder itself. However, lately when we've had sex, the part between these two parts has filled in -it's felt like my urethra is being literally torn apart. I can feel every little bit of that poor urethra along the top side of my vagina, like a thousand little fires being lit inside. This, obviously, is extremely unpleasant, and for the first time I find myself actively avoiding sexual situations. And that is also unpleasant.
I've listened to all my relaxation stuff on my iPod, used half a thing of lube at once and squirmed into every position in the Kama Sutra, to no avail. Finally, I went to my urologist and told him - he has found nothing wrong with me other than the usual IC. Essentially, I've developed no new problems - it seems to be just a flare-up of the old ones.
We have decided to try doing some home instills again... I'd stopped doing my usual instills because my IC was doing so well for a while there. This time we'll be using just lidocaine and bicarb and doing them only before sex to try to numb up the bladder and urethra a bit. I'll be picking up my supplies at the pharmacy once again today, so hopefully this plan will help a little.
But geeze... what a royal pain (literally)!!!
Well... I had to rant somewhere.... even after all these years, I still get angry with my body when it decides to misbehave in such a fashion. *SIGH*
Lately, sex has been absolutely excruciating.
I have always had pain with sex, but had managed to get a lot of it under control by finding a great lube and some positions that don't allow my husband to hit my bladder head-on during lovemaking. I've had adequate pain meds - but importantly, my IC was doing very well for quite some time.
Suddenly, though, over the last few months, the pain has increased and changed. Previously, my pain was divided into two distinct parts - a "ring" of pain around the vaginal opening on penetration, which is due to pelvic floor dysfunction and could be relieved by relaxation techniques, and the a deeper pain on thrusting when dear hubby would hit the bladder itself. However, lately when we've had sex, the part between these two parts has filled in -it's felt like my urethra is being literally torn apart. I can feel every little bit of that poor urethra along the top side of my vagina, like a thousand little fires being lit inside. This, obviously, is extremely unpleasant, and for the first time I find myself actively avoiding sexual situations. And that is also unpleasant.
I've listened to all my relaxation stuff on my iPod, used half a thing of lube at once and squirmed into every position in the Kama Sutra, to no avail. Finally, I went to my urologist and told him - he has found nothing wrong with me other than the usual IC. Essentially, I've developed no new problems - it seems to be just a flare-up of the old ones.
We have decided to try doing some home instills again... I'd stopped doing my usual instills because my IC was doing so well for a while there. This time we'll be using just lidocaine and bicarb and doing them only before sex to try to numb up the bladder and urethra a bit. I'll be picking up my supplies at the pharmacy once again today, so hopefully this plan will help a little.
But geeze... what a royal pain (literally)!!!
Well... I had to rant somewhere.... even after all these years, I still get angry with my body when it decides to misbehave in such a fashion. *SIGH*
(((Hugs)))
Lifelong IC symptoms, only diagnosed Oct 08 with cysto/hydro; lifetime IC has led to pelvic floor dysfunction, uterine prolapse, and vulvodynia. Fun!
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