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Family trip, so glad it's over!
I spent the last week in PA with my family. I live in CA and it was a long and painful trip.
Usually my family is understanding and supportive. But I guess that was mostly an illusion because I live so far away. My mom was okay. But my grandmother is really driving me crazy. We are very close, she helped raise me because my mom was so young and single mother.
Whenever I travel, I get major flares. Planes, airports, car rides, different food and water, etc, etc.
Anyway, my grandmother made several comments during the week, but I didn't say anything because I wanted to keep peace. I got home last night and she called me and I just lost it. I just wanted to be home alone and take a break from them. A week was just too long. There was a big family reunion (which she organized) and too much going on.
Anyway, she realized I was feeling bad. She kept making comments about how I shouldn't travel and I should cancel future traveling plans to go to Maine for my best friend's wedding in Sept. I'm her maid of honor. I had to skip shower because of IC. So I refuse to miss wedding. She told me not to go. I can't cancel that! So it's okay for me to go home and wreck my health. She pressured me to come home and even paid for plane ticket. But it's not okay to go to my best friend's wedding! She was very insensitive. Anyway, all the pressure from the week exploded and we argued. Now she is all mad at me and called my mom and complained about me. And after everything I said to her last night, it didn't change a thing. She told my mom I shouldn't go to wedding. She's so stubborn. She didn't listen to me at all!
I know that IC has robbed me of many things, my career, money, quality of life, etc, etc. But I refuse to let it ruin my entire life. Sometimes I'm going to push my body to do the really important things like go to my best friends wedding or go home for a week to visit family. I will deal with the flare because it's worth it.
But now I feel like this major flare I'm in wasn't worth it. She made me so mad. I know she has my best intentions. She wants me to feel good. But she just doesn't listen!
Thanks for letting me vent. I feel a little better already.
take care,
Melanie
Usually my family is understanding and supportive. But I guess that was mostly an illusion because I live so far away. My mom was okay. But my grandmother is really driving me crazy. We are very close, she helped raise me because my mom was so young and single mother.
Whenever I travel, I get major flares. Planes, airports, car rides, different food and water, etc, etc.
Anyway, my grandmother made several comments during the week, but I didn't say anything because I wanted to keep peace. I got home last night and she called me and I just lost it. I just wanted to be home alone and take a break from them. A week was just too long. There was a big family reunion (which she organized) and too much going on.
Anyway, she realized I was feeling bad. She kept making comments about how I shouldn't travel and I should cancel future traveling plans to go to Maine for my best friend's wedding in Sept. I'm her maid of honor. I had to skip shower because of IC. So I refuse to miss wedding. She told me not to go. I can't cancel that! So it's okay for me to go home and wreck my health. She pressured me to come home and even paid for plane ticket. But it's not okay to go to my best friend's wedding! She was very insensitive. Anyway, all the pressure from the week exploded and we argued. Now she is all mad at me and called my mom and complained about me. And after everything I said to her last night, it didn't change a thing. She told my mom I shouldn't go to wedding. She's so stubborn. She didn't listen to me at all!
I know that IC has robbed me of many things, my career, money, quality of life, etc, etc. But I refuse to let it ruin my entire life. Sometimes I'm going to push my body to do the really important things like go to my best friends wedding or go home for a week to visit family. I will deal with the flare because it's worth it.
But now I feel like this major flare I'm in wasn't worth it. She made me so mad. I know she has my best intentions. She wants me to feel good. But she just doesn't listen!
Thanks for letting me vent. I feel a little better already.
take care,
Melanie
and wouldn't feel the least bit bad about it....I will be 50 in Dec and boy oh boy - there won't be anything I will be doing because "I'm suppose to" it will ALL be because "I want to". My life is getting too darn short to keep doing it someone else's way.....know what I mean????? If I'm gona hurt after an occasion, I'm going to make darn good and sure that it's an occasion worth hurting for...
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