What a day! Why me? I had to go back to the Medical College of Georgia once again. I ended up getting the urodynamic assessment. OK. Oh! I did not enjoy it, but I reckon I am gonna be having worse done. (and have had) Besides, I have been through major neck surgery and will probably end up with rectal prolapse surgey. Anyway, I was told my bladder can't hold much and that my frequency is not related to my back problems.(which can happen) Also, I was urinating all the liquid back out again. (which she was saying I was emptying) I did get some of the floor.(which she is use to) OK. I did notice the tube was keeping my penis up some. (and not up as hard-on) (as to why some went on the floor) I did not leave town feeling good.(sinus and allergies & up earlier than I like to be) I feel a little bettter and hardly any pain now. I did state my anus, or whatever as I have not been told, sticks out when I go to urinate sometimes. Yep! A local gastroenterologist has done colonoscopy and another procedure only to say I have got proctitis. (which I truly expecte to hear "prolapse") (because I sit to pee more often to try to keep most of the mucous off of my underwear)(then possibly my pants) By the way, it did happen then, too. The nurse wanted to see it to verify it. Then she went and got urologist and a surgeon within a few minutes. OK. They all said it must be prolapse. How did the local doctor not say that? Hey! The urologist even stated I could get checked today if I would stay.(nope) I wanted to leave bad enough. He said to get it checked and that it would be stated in my notes. What am I gonna do? I am now supposed to take Oxybutynin 3 times day. How am I supposed to take something that cause drowsiness 3 times a day when I have to take a nap most days to begin with? I guess I am just screwed now. I have been to several doctors in 2011, but I am not getting better yet. (rectal prolapse surgery likely for me) I keep telling myself I am not a loser,
but I feel lost right now. I am actually crying once again. I use to enjoy life, but there are times now that I just feel like I am going though the motions.(like showering because it is the right thing to do) OK. I still attend church and ...have people say that they have been praying for me. I am not reaping any harvest at all. I have started reading a book called Getting To Heaven by Don Piper and Cecil Murphy, and it is actually making me feel lifted up while reading it some more.(if you ever read "90 Minutes In Heaven" by the same 2 people) I am not gonna bang my head on the wall, but I gotta wipe my nose by now.(and stop crying again) I have typed more than I planned to.(again) It keeps happening again. I don't see many dudes on any support group that I come onto on here, but I know I am not the only one. By the way, I have got much love and respect for all of you.(no matter what age, race, gender, religion, political views)Besides, we have a local dude whose daughter was married to one of the Navy Seals that was onboard that helicopter. OK. That will be all now.
(copied and posted from a post in facebook earlier today) (off to the bedroom to utilize the bed) (and only me upstairs)( as in to snooze ) (and hopefully wake up again) (although I stillmay not be a happy camper tomorrow)(possibly)Oh, well!
but I feel lost right now. I am actually crying once again. I use to enjoy life, but there are times now that I just feel like I am going though the motions.(like showering because it is the right thing to do) OK. I still attend church and ...have people say that they have been praying for me. I am not reaping any harvest at all. I have started reading a book called Getting To Heaven by Don Piper and Cecil Murphy, and it is actually making me feel lifted up while reading it some more.(if you ever read "90 Minutes In Heaven" by the same 2 people) I am not gonna bang my head on the wall, but I gotta wipe my nose by now.(and stop crying again) I have typed more than I planned to.(again) It keeps happening again. I don't see many dudes on any support group that I come onto on here, but I know I am not the only one. By the way, I have got much love and respect for all of you.(no matter what age, race, gender, religion, political views)Besides, we have a local dude whose daughter was married to one of the Navy Seals that was onboard that helicopter. OK. That will be all now.
(copied and posted from a post in facebook earlier today) (off to the bedroom to utilize the bed) (and only me upstairs)( as in to snooze ) (and hopefully wake up again) (although I stillmay not be a happy camper tomorrow)(possibly)Oh, well!
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