Hi all.. feeling down. I am 25. Female. Because of this disease, I feel I cant go out anymore and experience a social life. I have a lot of friends and every time I go out with them I force a smile but deep down inside I am extremely fatigued and fighting a battle. They just don't know. When my friends invite me out on weekends, I will go. The unfortunate part is... when I go to bed at 12,1 or 2 am on a weekend....my body automatically wakes up at 7 am to pee and its hard for me to go back to bed. Back when I didn't have IC I would sleep in but now I cant. So basically I will go to bed at 1 or 2 and wake up at 4 to pee then again at around 7. The next day, I am sooo fatigued to the point that I cannot function. Plus I have to work. I dont like missing out on fun times with my friends but I think that it has come to a point where I cant do this anymore to myself
I can't go out... I want to but I dont know what to do. On a daily basis, I am able to get a full rest when I go to bed before 11pm. So if I go to bed at or before 11pm and wake up at 7am - I will be fine. My body just automatically wakes up to pee at 7 or 8 but then its very difficult for me to go back to bed. And yes I follow the diet and I dont drink alcohol. But its just the part where I go to bed late... I just can't sleep in. Therefore, this just limits me from going out. I have been fighting it and fighting it with my friends but I just can't! I need to stay home and rest.
Now, another part of me feels guilty if I dont go out. Which I would like your help with... I feel guilty for missing out on fun times with friends now. I don't want them to think "Why doesnt she hang out with us anymore". They wouldnt think that in a bad way because they are my friends but I hope I dont lose them because of it. I also feel that its too personal and I dont want to talk to them about this - especially since 2 of them are close guy friends! I just really don't want to tell them. Its my own personal decision. I have just been battling it every time but now I have come to my senses and its just not right for me - not right for my body
And I know I can do other stuff like movies so Its not like I wont see them again but its just hanging out late.
I would love to know if anyone knows where I am coming from.
Just to let you know before the diet, I would get up every hour to pee during the night but now its 3 times or 4 - which sadly I consider good.

Now, another part of me feels guilty if I dont go out. Which I would like your help with... I feel guilty for missing out on fun times with friends now. I don't want them to think "Why doesnt she hang out with us anymore". They wouldnt think that in a bad way because they are my friends but I hope I dont lose them because of it. I also feel that its too personal and I dont want to talk to them about this - especially since 2 of them are close guy friends! I just really don't want to tell them. Its my own personal decision. I have just been battling it every time but now I have come to my senses and its just not right for me - not right for my body

I would love to know if anyone knows where I am coming from.
Just to let you know before the diet, I would get up every hour to pee during the night but now its 3 times or 4 - which sadly I consider good.
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