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  • #31
    to you and to Jake. What you have done and continue to do is an act of pure and unconditional love. Isn't that what life is SUPPOSED to be about? I have such respect and admiration for all that you are doing. Jake is a very fortunate child to have you for his mommy. The love you have for each other can never, ever be diminished or taken away.

    Cyber Grandma Annie

    Ulcerative Colitis and IBS
    Pelvic Floor Dysfunction

    Retirement is great! Work is highly overrated!!!
    ---My dear hubby

    Never go to a doctor whose office plants are dead.


    • #32
      Annie thank you so very much (((((((((hugs))))))))))
      'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.'


      • #33
        You and yours are in my prayers. I understand the love for nephews and neices too.
        God be with you!
        Faith is not believing God can; Faith is believing God will!


        • #34
          You and Jake have had my family prayers and still do!
          Faith, Hope, and Love,

          I believe God is using me. He uses me for God. Things I gain from all my suffering are meant to help others. I hope I can help you too. Email me or start a chat if you like my help or anything. I CARE!Illnesses: IC,IBS, IBD, GERD, PFD, Epilepsy, Endo, Allergies, RLM,Rapid heart beat, low blood pressure,Gastritis,Gall stones,Tendonitis,migraines, Shingles, Prolapsed pouch,ext. fatigue (current problem) I have seen periods of remission and I have seen them end and return. At this time remission is over and working on getting it back!

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          • #35
            Thank you.
            As the days go by, closer and closer to the court date more anxiety sets in. I have had some very horrible nightmares, like my niece hitting me over the head, knocking me out while I am putting Jake in his car seat and taking him. I even dreamed that she broke in my house and took him. I told my mom that I am scared that she is going to do something to me at court, or on the way out of court.
            This will never be over, she will always be lurking in the back ground like a cat ready to pounce. I spend most of my time looking over my shoulder when I am leaving my house or out and about. I am not afraid for me, I am afraid for Jake. If she dose something to me and takes Jake, what will happen to his precious self.
            I know what my niece is capable of. She has made it perfectly clear to everyone, that she will kill anyone that trys to or takes her baby. As a mother I understand this, and we all say it. The thing is, she is capable of doing it with out a second thought. she got mad at some one she didn't know and burnt their car up. When CPS was called on her she said that she knew it was so and so, and she was going to cut up that fat bla bla bla in tiny little pieces.
            If by chance anything happens to me, I want you all to know that thru the last few years I appreciate all the support you have given me. I don't want to miss saying that you. I have made some great friends on this board, some I talk to daily on the phone, exchange emails, and joke. You all have touched my heart in one way or another.
            I guess what I need to do is see if I can print up some personal protection order papers from my states web sight, fill them out and go and get them signed by the judge. I wish I could get this done before court and have Foster Care serve her right there on Thursday, but I want to make sure that Jake will be included in the personal protection order. I think I will have to have some sort of paper work indicating that he is in my permanent care. I may even have to wait until her rights have been terminated, that will be at least another 60 days.
            Sorry for rambling on here, but I have so much going thru my mind right now. All of this has had me flaring something awful. I remember back a few years the pain was so bad, hubby had to carry me out of the house to the truck to take me to ER. I am getting close to that pain now. ok, I'll shut up now.. lol.

            Thanks girls, you listening, prayers and support really means a great deal to me.
            'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.'


            • #36
              I am so sorry that you have been so stressed out about this. You are trying to do what is best for Jake and you have to worry about his mother hurting you for it. That just isn't right. If she can't take care of him then she should at least want him to be with you where he will be loved and taken such good care of. I hope that everything goes well at court and then you can get a protection order for both you and Jake. Please be safe and remember that everybody here is here for you.

              I have been diagnoised for 6 1/2 years now. I have taken a long break from the ICN but really miss helping out my fellow IC patients and want to get back into posting.
              1st hydro 4/07 showed no visible signs of IC but tons of mast cells in all my biopsy samples which did prove IC.
              2nd hydro 4/13/09 showed dark purple glomerulations and I had a capacity of 450 cc's. This hydro proved that my IC had progressed.
              I have tried every oral medication as well as rescue instills and DMSO.

              I have been lucky enough to see Dr Hanno, the top IC specialist in PA who has told me due to the fact that I have not responded to any "standard" treatments that I have a severe, end stage case of IC with a horrible quality of life (didn't have to tell me that last part!)

              Proud wifey of Shane, mommy to Griffin, and step-mom to Logan and Gage
              Also proud mom to the best Bullmastiff on earth, Claus


              • #37
                'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.'


                • #38
                  Cindy hoping all goes well with Jake and you. You are really a wonderful person and the love you have for this child is so great.



                  • #39
                    Tigger gal,
                    This little boy is extremely fortunate to have you and your husband as parents. I hope it becomes permament soon and you are able to adopt him. The world needs more people like you.


                    • #40
                      Thank you so very much..
                      Its really hard to do this. The guilt I feel is great. I don't feel quilty for saving Jake, but I feel guilty because my niece thinks I stold her baby. I did not do this, her and her b/f was not mentally capable to take care of him. You just have to be mentally challenged for this to have taken place...
                      ok.. now that the boards are locked to the out side world I will list a few things that has happened.

                      1st call when they lived in an apartment complex, several people called for Jake screaming and crying non stop. (3 months old)
                      2nd call was because Jakes foot was bitten by supposed father. (4 months old)I have pictures
                      3rd call father picked baby up by ankels screaming you f'ing little ******* if you want your bottle you will beg for it (7 months old)
                      4th call, baby screaming in the middle of the night for hours, they (his bio parents)were fighting.
                      4th call.... they got in a fight, she left and he left, baby locked in a hot dark trailer alone.. it took the cops an hour to find dad, he was getting high down the street (in police report) he said he did not know the baby was home, the baby sitter must have dropped him off and left.. he got arrested, he called my niece and she was visiting where she works.

                      When I took jake for the complete check up for abused children, during the x-rays, I was asked 3 different times, 3 different ways if he had been treated for a left arm fracture. omg.... I was livid.
                      The bite mark 4 months later was completely visible and was proven to be an adult bite, but no evicence to prove who.

                      My niece never held him to drink a bottle, it was always propped up with a blanket. He was rarely taken out of the swing, when he was the clothe on the swing would be soaked and a puddle in the the seat. 3 and 4 bottles of 2 or so ounces of sour forumla was in his crib, so sour that it was big lumps.
                      She never bathed him, she would scream at him for waking her up in the middle for a bottle. my sister said she walked in on her pinching his checks together and trying to force the nipple in his moth because he didn't want it.
                      his little bottom stayed blistered because she said he can go 8 or 10 hours with out peeing... one day it was so could out and the gusts were enough to freeze your face, she got mad at her mom and left walking with him. this was around 11 am, she took no bottles with her, called me at 6 pm to tell me she was with a friend, I asked when Jake ate last she told me around 9 am but he wasn't hungry..these are just some of the things that had happened. and constantly reminding my self, and reading the reports is what makes me be able to not feel sorry for her.

                      4 more days to court..
                      thank you everyone
                      'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.'


                      • #41
                        Cindy, once a Pastor told me I have to quit condemning myself over somthing that I haveno control over. You are just looking for that child safety and what greater love is that. I hope the courts will see this and know your best interest is about Jake.

                        Sending many hugs, Trishann


                        • #42
                          Cindy, you are an amazing woman with an amazing heart. God bless you for being this child's guardian angel.


                          • #43
                            thank you from the bottom og my heart.. 2 days to go, I wam sleeping rough, stealing all the blankets from hubby. The night before I knew I was tossing and turning, so I slept on the couch.. I think maybe I will tonight too after, the rough night I had last night. I woke up with a sickening headache. I just did not want to get up, but my bladder said I was.. then the pooches woke up jake so it wasn't like I could go back to bed..
                            I know Jake must be reading into the stress I am under, bless his little heart, he has no idea what mommy is going thru. I am grateful he is young enough not to understand. He don't really know his birth mom, just as a playmate.. I need to get a baby book for him, so I can write his fists in... and of course put his birth moms picture in. I won't deny him of that right, but she will never get a hold of him, she will have to pry him from my cold dead hands first.. yesterday when I was talking to my mom she actually refered to Jake as my son.. every one thinks so too, except his geandma (my sister) but she will just have to get over it..
                            'The will of God will never take you where the Grace of God will not protect you.'


                            • #44
                              I can't even imagine to understand the stressfulness of it all. Just want you to know my prayers are with you and hope you can get some good sleep. Yes I know you will fight with all your might to keep Jake safe, but I pray that you don't have to fight so hard, that somehow God will intervene, and cause people with authority to fight for you.

                              Hugs, Trishann


                              • #45