
Since the last post for Botox was over a year ago I thought i'd start a new thread. I'm at the end of the treatment pipeline. I've done or taken just about everything. I have severe End Stage IC. It is one of the worst cases my doc has seen (he specializes in female pelvic disorders) I just tried Interstim back in November...it was a complete failure, I actually feel worse. Now he wants to try Botox. I have some concerns. For one thing he finally admitted after the Interstim failed that with the severity of my IC just about anything is a "crapshoot at best". Before the surgery he had told my father there was a"good chance" it would work. Since I did not wish to spend my days alone with the device in me while my husband was at work I stayed with my parents during that time. Each day as it became more obvious it was not working, my father became more and more devastated. I thought he was going to throttle my Dr. When he finally fessed up to the truth. I knew from my research the odds were not in my favor, but wanted to try anyway. But now even having known that my depression has worsened. I'm not sure I'm psychologically ready for another procedure so soon and another failure. I've already cancelled 2 appointments because I know he is going to push hard for Botox right away. I've read about the retention problems and the need to self cath as a probability. I'm unable to do that, even nurses have a hard time putting one in me. I was told years ago it was unlikely I'd be able to...something about how I'm shaped. The stories of pain increasing also worry me...I take over 1000 mg of morphine a day & frequently use fentanyl sticks...and I still experience a great deal of pain. It never stops I have 3 levels; bad, horrible & excruciating...the first 2 happen every day, the 3rd 4-5 days a week. So any advice, experiences with Botox, any info? BTW my dr hates that I do research on my condition. I think he wants to be the fountain of all knowledge. He may be the" pro from Dover" but his bedside manner needs some work. I know that people often think that if you don't try everything suggested it means you don't want to get better, but it's been my experience that each failure means getting worse and I'm at the end of my rope physically & mentally. I haven't given up, but I've become much more wary. I would give anything to get better, get my life back and return to teaching, but now I have to weigh all the consequences. Any responses would be welcome and thanks for "listening"
Pamela Joy
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