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Taking implant out
After having the device in for 54 months with it working only 18 of those months and 1 revision surgery it's outa here on the 25th. I can't believe how emotional I've gotten over this. I want it out. It's an unnecessary object in my body that is doing nothing to help me but it's been such a long battle trying and trying to get that feeling I had for 18 months. Sometimes I think it's become a part of me because we are always so careful not to bump it or if we are waiting in lines, we make sure to protect that cheek of our fanny
I'm sure not looking forward to surgery again. The last one about put me over the edge. I spent months in bed crying. If it hadn't been for some other interstim girls who had surgeries at the same time I had my revision, I know I would have lost my mind. That emotional support is something you can't get from a bottle.
And, I've basically gone off my major pain medication. Got to the point where I had to make the decision if I wanted to drive or not. I've got 2 grandchildren who are being taken care of while my daughter is schooling/working and I am the emergency contact. So, for the benefit of others, it's time. I know that it's here if I get to be in horrific pain. I am still taking my dilaudid and zanaflex and I gotta tell you, it's nice having a clear mind again eek I didn't have any idea how bad it was until I did my HB'S books. I got 1/2 way thru them and a few days later when I went to finish them I couldn't believe the mistakes I'd made...........to ALL ICers who are still able to maintain a job, even if it's only a couple days a week, I gotta big huge grouphug for you because I was reminded of how hard is it and I only do books quarterly.
I've got soooooooooooooo much to do before the 25th and I'm in total panic mode. When I ask my uro about the recovery he laughed and said with others it's only a matter of a couple of weeks but with you who knows blink I know that there is nerve damage in my back and I'm scared to death but I'm even more scared to leave it in. It looks like the device they are working on now will be fantastic. The surgery will be simple as pie and the recovery time will be basically zero but this old bird is done , I've got too many other things happening in my family and I need to emotionally find some middle ground that I can stand on.
I am hoping that "brat" will take over this section on the interstim. She's had the new trial AND surgery so she has so much more info to share than us oldtimers. And, even if she doesn't offically take it over, she is still here for each and every one of you.
Thanks for listening~
I'm sure not looking forward to surgery again. The last one about put me over the edge. I spent months in bed crying. If it hadn't been for some other interstim girls who had surgeries at the same time I had my revision, I know I would have lost my mind. That emotional support is something you can't get from a bottle.And, I've basically gone off my major pain medication. Got to the point where I had to make the decision if I wanted to drive or not. I've got 2 grandchildren who are being taken care of while my daughter is schooling/working and I am the emergency contact. So, for the benefit of others, it's time. I know that it's here if I get to be in horrific pain. I am still taking my dilaudid and zanaflex and I gotta tell you, it's nice having a clear mind again eek I didn't have any idea how bad it was until I did my HB'S books. I got 1/2 way thru them and a few days later when I went to finish them I couldn't believe the mistakes I'd made...........to ALL ICers who are still able to maintain a job, even if it's only a couple days a week, I gotta big huge grouphug for you because I was reminded of how hard is it and I only do books quarterly.
I've got soooooooooooooo much to do before the 25th and I'm in total panic mode. When I ask my uro about the recovery he laughed and said with others it's only a matter of a couple of weeks but with you who knows blink I know that there is nerve damage in my back and I'm scared to death but I'm even more scared to leave it in. It looks like the device they are working on now will be fantastic. The surgery will be simple as pie and the recovery time will be basically zero but this old bird is done , I've got too many other things happening in my family and I need to emotionally find some middle ground that I can stand on.
I am hoping that "brat" will take over this section on the interstim. She's had the new trial AND surgery so she has so much more info to share than us oldtimers. And, even if she doesn't offically take it over, she is still here for each and every one of you.
Thanks for listening~
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