The last time I was at my doctor the topic of bladder removal came up, and considering that things have actually gotten much worst since this time I am guessing it may come up at my appointment next week. He is a very good doctor, one of the best. He will NOT pressure me into any decision at all, which is something I have very mixed feelings about. It's a mark of an amazing and respectful physician to give so much power and trust in his patients, but at the same time, I'm like, can't you just tell me what to do haha? I know that's not realistic, but a girl can dream right?
It's so funny 'cause I did a search for this topic and found an old post where I wrote I was super tired of going to the bathroom every 45 minutes! Hahahaha! Now I go to the bathroom like 50 times a day. Sometimes a little more and sometimes a little less. Sometimes I get so incredibly tired of going 50 + times a day and I hold my pee in longer and just deal with all the pain. Well, either way there is a lot of pain involved I guess.
A recent development is really bad urinary retention. I wrote this in another post too, but I went several weeks where my bladder just wouldn't work at all. I had to cath every single time I wanted to pee. Not wanting to cath myself 50 + times in 24 hours (OUCH!!!!), I would hold it in. Well, that back fired and I got a nasty kidney infection that took a couple weeks and two rounds of antibiotics to get rid of (I do not recommend kidney infections - it was not fun at all). Now I pee on my own when my bladder spasms (I run to the bathroom when I feel the spasm to get as much out as I can), and when I go for awhile without a spasm I have to go back to the catheter.
For the retention I tried to go down on some of my medicines, but the pain was too much for my body to physically bear, and so that wasn't going to work. I guess I'm pretty depressed because it's incredibly hard to go places. It's a huge deal and I'm already exhausted to no end as it is. Even going to the movies can wear me out big time. Some people tell me the IC is worst because I'm sad, but I'm pretty sure I'm sad because the IC is worst. Sometimes though, if I hear enough of that talk I get really really confused.
Oh, and I've tried like everything. I even ordered Uracyst from Canada. I tried natural and traditional medicine, vitamins, IC diet/organic living, therapy, alternative treatments, off label stuff, etc. I've had IC diagnosed for several years, but had pretty bad bladder problems off and on when I was a kid as well. I have had some times that are better, but haven't had one in awhile and things are just worst than ever. Even in my "good" times, the IC can be pretty symptomatic but I would just try to take meds and work around it the best I could.
I'm terrified of having my bladder out, but I'm about at the end of IC treatments and obviously things are pretty bad. I do not have any support from my family for the surgery which is pretty heart wrenching to tell you the truth. They do not understand. They think I just don't try hard enough to "live with" the IC. Yikes! There's no way. I'm always drugged up and my doctors at the pain clinic got mad at me saying I should be drugged up more. I'm absolutely terrified of becoming a vegetable. I don't know what to do. I want to consider the surgery, but I know it will be hard without support. I'm scared of it coming up in the appointment. There's no pleasing me. The surgery scares me, but not having it scares me too because he already mentioned if I don't have it I may just be "waiting to see if something new comes out" in the field. It's just depressing to live this way. Any thoughts? Words of encouragement? ANYTHING that might make me not so scared lol? Thanks!
It's so funny 'cause I did a search for this topic and found an old post where I wrote I was super tired of going to the bathroom every 45 minutes! Hahahaha! Now I go to the bathroom like 50 times a day. Sometimes a little more and sometimes a little less. Sometimes I get so incredibly tired of going 50 + times a day and I hold my pee in longer and just deal with all the pain. Well, either way there is a lot of pain involved I guess.
A recent development is really bad urinary retention. I wrote this in another post too, but I went several weeks where my bladder just wouldn't work at all. I had to cath every single time I wanted to pee. Not wanting to cath myself 50 + times in 24 hours (OUCH!!!!), I would hold it in. Well, that back fired and I got a nasty kidney infection that took a couple weeks and two rounds of antibiotics to get rid of (I do not recommend kidney infections - it was not fun at all). Now I pee on my own when my bladder spasms (I run to the bathroom when I feel the spasm to get as much out as I can), and when I go for awhile without a spasm I have to go back to the catheter.
For the retention I tried to go down on some of my medicines, but the pain was too much for my body to physically bear, and so that wasn't going to work. I guess I'm pretty depressed because it's incredibly hard to go places. It's a huge deal and I'm already exhausted to no end as it is. Even going to the movies can wear me out big time. Some people tell me the IC is worst because I'm sad, but I'm pretty sure I'm sad because the IC is worst. Sometimes though, if I hear enough of that talk I get really really confused.
Oh, and I've tried like everything. I even ordered Uracyst from Canada. I tried natural and traditional medicine, vitamins, IC diet/organic living, therapy, alternative treatments, off label stuff, etc. I've had IC diagnosed for several years, but had pretty bad bladder problems off and on when I was a kid as well. I have had some times that are better, but haven't had one in awhile and things are just worst than ever. Even in my "good" times, the IC can be pretty symptomatic but I would just try to take meds and work around it the best I could.
I'm terrified of having my bladder out, but I'm about at the end of IC treatments and obviously things are pretty bad. I do not have any support from my family for the surgery which is pretty heart wrenching to tell you the truth. They do not understand. They think I just don't try hard enough to "live with" the IC. Yikes! There's no way. I'm always drugged up and my doctors at the pain clinic got mad at me saying I should be drugged up more. I'm absolutely terrified of becoming a vegetable. I don't know what to do. I want to consider the surgery, but I know it will be hard without support. I'm scared of it coming up in the appointment. There's no pleasing me. The surgery scares me, but not having it scares me too because he already mentioned if I don't have it I may just be "waiting to see if something new comes out" in the field. It's just depressing to live this way. Any thoughts? Words of encouragement? ANYTHING that might make me not so scared lol? Thanks!
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